Thursday, October 29, 2009

Hola, everyone! Today is a very exciting day for me (April). Today, something I've been dreaming of and hoping for since 1989- for 20 long years has finally come to pass. Today, I, for the first time in my life, was able to roll my R's. I have been trying to do this since freshman Spanish. I finally can. A whole new world of Spanish pronunciation has opened up. I can say carro, arriba, error, and so many more! It is a wonderful, exciting day. I have been released from my speech impediment. It is time for bed, but I just had to share the news.

We are so excited about the baptisms at Brown's. The news from home has been very exciting. God is still in the business of changing lives, including mine. I have been really challenged here in Costa Rica. Our last speaker talked about how much Christ loves us, not because of anything we do, but just because that is the way it is. You would think we already know this and we do when we are saved, but we seem to get confused along the way. We think, "Hey, I've been a Christian for 10 years. I'm doing pretty good so God must love me, at least in part, because of what I'm doing for Him." Or, we think, "I've been a Christian for 10 years and l'm a mess. God must be so disappointed in me." So we live either with pride, or with a sense that God is disappointed. We forget that Christ loves us no matter what. He wants our obedience, but that doesn't add to his love.

I have been feeling that way for a while-that God is disappointed in me. Why can't I do more? Why can't I forgive more easily? Why can't I keep my mouth shut? How can God be pleased with me- He has given me every opportunity in life and shouldn't I have more to show for it? It seems like I was doing better at 20 than I am at 35! It was a real shock to admit what I was feeling. I was trying to earn the love of Christ and not succeeding. I guess I needed to be reminded of the Gospel again- that God so loved the world...while we were yet sinners Christ died for us... We don't stop being sinners and we don't stop being loved. I am going through my Bible right now and underlining every reference to God's love for me. It should be fun.

Love to you all from Jesus Christ and from me,
Amen and Buenas Noches


  1. Hello Dice's, we will have quite a week to report to you from Clare. Baptism, Celebration, and FMSC this next Friday. Lots of news all of which you have had a great part. We were talking about Jeff this morning and How encouraging he was in our first meetings about FMSC. We will miss you here to pack but are going to take a lot of pictures to share with you. Please tell Camden Happy Pre Birthday!Still miss you guys but am happy the the R's are rolling!!! Love You All, BRae

  2. Dearr April, Jeff, Karrris, Ellie, Mason, and Camden,

    Grrrreat to hearr that learrrning still happens . . . enjoy the prrrrogrress. It is rrrreally nice to hearrr from you on a rrrregular basis.

    It is getting colderrr all the time, and soon snow ill brrrrring white stuff to make it even colderrr.

    Enjoy the time therrrre, and we'll see you beforrrre you know it.


  3. We are so excited to hear about FMSC, Brae. I hope it is a blast.
    Thanks Uncle Steve...very cool.
    Love ya Linda.